Best of Friends?

What happened to us? We used to be the best of friends and now I don't even think that we are friends anymore. The last time we were really friends is a week before I left for fall semester. You drove Audrey and I to Christies birthday party. I got jokingly mad at you cause you made me listen to Christmas music but it was still so much fun.You got mad at us cause we almost made you late for work. Is that why you won't talk to me anymore? I first met you my sophomore year during Much Ado About Nothing, you were a friend of Jake's and I thought you were really nice. We hung out and talked so much through that play and through so much other stuff we did together with friends. But now it's like we barely knew each other.Last time, I saw you, you only said hi and bye to me. Yeah I was staying away from you because I felt awkward about the text I sent and also I was just mad.On int in our friendship you told me if I ever needed anything from you, you would be there for me.Now you haven't responded to one of my texts since September. Even when I texted you the other day to tell you congrats about your job you didn't even acknowledge that text. I realize you have basically a whole new life now with your girlfriend,work,and school going on but why does that mean our friendship has to end? I miss you. I miss the way you would make all  of us laugh when you would hang out with our little family of friends we had. According to them, you don't even text them back anymore. What's going on with you? I miss you. As mad as I say I am about you ignoring my texts its really the fact that I just miss you. Come back big brother. I need you, we all need you. If you read the text I sent you that was me just needing to get my anger out and for you to understand. I wanted you to respond so we could talk it out, but I guess not.I want it to go back to normal, I don't want to feel awkward around you everytime I see you know.

Coming Back Home

    I'm currently on my winter break before my second semester of college.During this break I've been told 'you look different' or 'you seem different" countless time.At first I didn't think much of it,but as break progressed I realized I really have changed. With graduating high school and going to a college where I knew maybe 5 people but I didn't know them personally at all, I had to leave behind a lot of things. I left my friends and family behind, soccer, theatre, and swim. For most of my life soccer and theatre have been a huge part of my life. Especially soccer which I've played since kindergarden.I've also loved swimming my whole life and have done swim team the past two years so that's a impact as well. So leaving those behind has changed me.Throughout the year there are times when I have missed them but at the same time,I know that my life for the better. Before I started college,I told myself that I was not going to be shy anymore and for the most part I have let that stand.I was even told once that I seemed to be a extroverted type of person.
   I've also had to learn a lot more about responsibility then I've had to know in past years.I had to keep track of my money and make sure that I had enough money  for the things that I need but still enough where I could go have fun with my friends.Throughout high school,I would have my parents always asking me about my grades and if they got a call saying I missed a class they would immediately talk to me;but now it's all up to me.I have the choice to go to class, I have to keep track of my grades and I also have to make sure that I am taking the classes that I need in order to graduate.With coming back, I have noticed with some of my friends that are still in high school that I am a lot more mature than they are now and I feel a ton older even though i'm only a year ahead.Now i'm saying I don't like my friends anymore or that they are immature, it's just that college had changed me personality wise.
    On regards to looking different on the outside,I've started to care a ton more about what I look like since people at my school see me everyday.Of course I still have days where I'm just in a t-shirt and sweats but my appearance just matters a lot more to me than before.So yeah I've changed but I would say it's for the better.